Yesterday was father’s day and I went out to dinner with my fiancee and his family to celebrate. We went to one of my favorite restaurants but I was a little nervous about it since I didn’t know if I was going to be able to resist all of the food temptations I would have around me. I honestly hesitated about going and at one point I even told Paul that I wasn’t going to go. He understood why I decided not to go knowing the dinner would only be 4 weeks before my first show.
After pondering about my decision, I changed my mind and told him that yes, I was going to go after all. Why did I change my mind? I did a little reflection about why I’m doing this competition and the person I’m not willing to become because of it. But first let me tell you that dieting for a show is not easy on the body and on the mind…. that I’m finding out. The closer you get to the show and your bodyfat levels drop, dieting can play a lot of tricks on you! You must use all of the inner strength & discipline you have in order not to eat all of the yummy foods everybody else is eating in front of you. It’s doable but it’s not an easy task.
So here you go, my Top 5 List of Competitors I DON’T want to be:
- The competitor that becomes a hermit for fear of messing up their diets – I love socializing and meeting up with people when I can so being stuck in my home for 12 or 16 weeks is a big no no.
- The competitor that misses social gatherings so that she doesn’t have to hear comments about her body – Fortunately I have a very supportive group around me and they’re very proud of what I’m doing but if I didn’t? I would say the hell with it… THEY’re the ones that have to deal with it, not me.
- The competitor that gets cranky and hard to deal with because she’s dieting – Why do my loved ones have to deal with my crankiness because I’m dieting?
- The competitor that all she talks about is her competition – Really? There is more to life than just my competition!
- The competitor that is too tired for you know what – Well, no comments on this one
So there you have it. I survived last night at Bandera’s and I ended up ordering a salad with rotisserie chicken. I was able to eye ball my chicken portion and the rest was pretty much part of my “free” options. I added lemon, salt & pepper for my dressing and it was delicious! While everybody ate my favorite dessert (banana cream pie), I drank my chamomile tea and tried to focus on the conversation and not on the food.
I have two more tests coming up; a happy hour for work at a Mexican restaurant and a baseball game for work and we’ll be sitting in the all you can eat section. Yikes! I’ll be bringing my lunch box with me and I don’t care what people think.
Today I’m 26 days out! woohoo!